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My Review of the Veteran 3-CD Bundle

Hi, this is James again. I was a corporal in the Marines in Viet Nam from, 1966 to 1968, in and around Quang Tri Province, mostly at the DMZ, participating in a dozen or so field operations from Dong Ha to Khe Sahn, over the hundreds of days.

I wanted to give you my feedback and detailed review on using Genevieve Gerard’s I’m Free Veterans 3-CD Bundle.

A few words about these three helpful Veteran CD’s and their processes.

I’m Free To Relax

From our hearts, the best of our experience is offered here. It is a beginning step in our commitment to veterans and those who have suffered traumatic experience, for moving into a life free from Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) and, with a growing strength from understanding gained through hard experience. In the long run we can only grow stronger in our power to love ourselves and others.

If any of what is offered here seems hard to you. That tells you how powerful the negative resistance in you is to healing and how important a step it is to your health. As with any enemy, for victory against PTSD, where it is strongest, most resistant, that is where you attack. We want you to know that as in war, you are not alone. Together we are an invincible force of light.

I have worked with Genevieve Gerard for over thirty years in transformational, healing, meditation groups and on many projects. She is eminently qualified having worked for many years with trauma victims.


Genevieve created these products out of love for those who suffer trauma, including me. Her guidance works.”
      – James Daniel McTague

This is the first in the series being created for those who experience the inner struggle of traumatic personal experience. Success with this beginning will lead to deeper steps and a complete life transformation as that invincible force of light takes root in you and grows

I’m Free To Sleep

When we sleep, we leave consciousness, out of our body in two ways, through the top of the head or through the solar plexus.

Out the solar plexus leaves us in the surrounding emotional body, exposed to our memories and feelings. This is our normal habit in war.

We stand sentinel over our sleeping body, in the astral world to watch, listen for incoming, sensitive to the slightest vibration of harm. We wake up easily and it is dangerous when we do. Going to sleep out of the top of the head projects us toward the mental levels and away from disturbing emotional patterns and a much more pleasant sleep. Aim high when you fall asleep.

Put on the meditation and surrender into a visualized light above the top of your head. If you dream, waking up with stress, get up, drink some water, run a shower of cleansing energy, from the light above your head, through you and into the ground, until your systems calm. Put the meditation back on and go back to sleep; out of the top of your head. Surrender to the change.

I’m Feeling Free

This third meditation in the series is a profound meditation exercise. Little by little this process will bring light into dark places and open your awareness to the realization of a complete transformation.

The warrior of destruction becomes the warrior of light, love and redemption. You will have to work harder on this one in order to get deep enough into the emotional nature for complete change, but it is well worth it. If you feel disturbed by the process that is a normal healing crises and an indication of it working. Run your cleansing shower of light from the star above your head and Keep On Going!

Sometimes fighting our emotions is far harder than any physical battle.

After you have experienced these three meditations you will have a grounding in the healing meditation process. You will be ready to go deeper into your psyche and the power of your healing process.

For The Future

The deeper levels of PTSD meditation for complete PTSD transformation and the group work that brings it about, is available to you when you have opened into this process enough to feel that further effort will bring positive results of healing release and a renewal of confidence in your power to heal yourself. Not just from PTSD, but from any condition life brings you.

If you work for your healing, in the fullness of time there is only progress toward and into the light of higher consciousness. That light is love and that love is healing and redemption. You can never lose your right to it, but you do have to learn how to use it. It’s easy, it just takes courage; but you already have that.

Let’s Start.

From my own experience, with this gift that keeps on giving, I have learned a couple of things I absolutely know for sure:

Number One:
It is more than curable. And in its place can be left something far greater than the price.

More than curable? After the experiences are transmuted into understanding and from understanding into the positive power of applied, creative good, which is expressed love, you will become far stronger than you ever you were as a warrior.

Where there was a dark, coiled desperation of seemingly impossible circumstances, there will be an explosion of radiant, glorious light. Oh yes, light, look behind the dark, you can see it, waiting. Others who have overcome what you face and more stand as radiant points of light for you to see. Light yourself up, a tested warrior’s will is an amazing power.

Number Two:
You need to experience the power of group.

This moves the process along.

Isolation and separation from others will not fix PTSD. In PTSD groups, with the shared understanding of others like you, a healing presence enters into the process, one that no other way of working can duplicate. This group process can be provided in a number of ways, by on line group meditation process or group meditation with recorded group process, such as we are offering here. It does not always have to be a live group.

However, I recommend as one who avoided it for many years; that, whatever else you do, you give and receive in a live group for yourself and others to provide the movement past the sticking points. A short time in a give and take group with other veterans will change you, as it did me, as it always does. It is a part of the process. If you are working with our group meditations, where possible, put a group together and do it with others.

You wont believe the difference until you experience it. Into such a group is summoned, by its need, a tremendous presence of healing power. It never fails to arrive and if you watch and wait it will work its miracle. In a short time you will began to realize how much you are helping your brothers and sister veterans and then the transformation takes root. We fight wars for the freedom to live our lives as we want, that freedom is really to allow love to grow and prosper. This process demonstrates why.

Number Three:
You must ask for the help and receive it!

You must hear yourself wanting the process to work and for it to release you from those dark and familiar possessions of war that exist in our mind and feelings, our memories of the past. This is a form of bondage we must ask to break.

We can give you something to put in place of those dark associations that will allow you to replace with substantial light the dark core of negation that keeps us bound to the past. This does not change the memory of events; it places you in a positive relationship to them; no matter how difficult.

You can then enter present time free of those haunting things and know you need not go back into that place. You stand in control, healing and lighting the past, not being driven by it. Separating your immortal, untouchable identity out from it is a major step.

You have far more power to heal then ever you had to destroy, use it! Not for yourself just for that which you need to heal in you. If PTSD teaches nothing else, it teaches us that what is in the past is still connected to and involved in our life in present time. That truth can haunt us, or give us power. The choice is ours.

First yourself, then the past, then the world. By asking within yourself, in humility, and of others, for the help that can give and receiving the result, and being grateful, you learn that all others must do the same. It is just the way the healing process works. Because it is driven by love, what love actually is, it unifies and deepens our relationship to others in its healing power. Because war destroys, it seems the opposite of love but that is not so, war releases love to enter where before it was blocked from going, including in us.

I see a long way into the future now. I see a lasting positive outcome for me and for all of us. I still remember my war experience, the debts, paid and unpaid. However now I see them bathed in the light and love of redemption, my gift, my choice, for them and for me. I know myself as a power of good until the end of the world. That power flows into the world through me in an ever increasing stream. I am now, a warrior of light. I stand in dynamic harmlessness and love, as much and as often as I can. With the help of others it grows daily.

Freedom and love are still and will always be worth fighting and dying for. However, if we strengthen love and group awareness in our healing will-power we will eventually free the world of the need for war.
I am your brother, in war and in peace.

James Daniel McTague

Semper Fi

Words from a friend and veteran
– To Returning Veterans

My name is James. You don’t need to know much about me. I will say this, I was a corporal in the Marines in Viet Nam from, 1966 to 1968, in and around Quang Tri Province, mostly at the DMZ, participating in a dozen or so field operations from Dong Ha to Khe Sahn, over the hundreds of days.

Along with my fellow marines, I learned a lot about war, earned a Presidential Unit Citation and a truck load of PTSD. Given that we didn’t have much help in those days for PTSD, it took me years to get involved in working on mine. During that time 50,000 veterans of Viet Nam, like me, committed suicide.

In today’s warriors it is even worse. Don’t ignore PTSD, it’s dangerous, but I promise you, it can be fixed. You have to help, it is your duty. Healing you, and others, is actually the positive side of being a warrior.

My war is far behind and most of us who fought it have come to terms with our PTSD, or we have been lost to it. So what I say here I say to those returning veterans and those of the more recent wars we have fought. I do remember the naked and almost violent sensitivity I experienced returning from war and realize the seemingly endless cycle it puts us into. Like a bad burn, it seems like the burning will never end. This is not so, it can and will go away and with some effort you can put a miracle in its place. Life supports warriors with an endless power including you as much as anyone who has ever lived. Not the power called will, but with another called love, Take advantage of it. We will help you.

So you have PTSD, welcome to the world of love and war. Without love there would be no PTSD. Without war love would have been snuffed out a long time ago. Now, using love, the greatest healing power you possess, let’s do something about it. Oh, and if you saw action and don’t think you have PTSD, guess again.

PTSD, it is all stored, unprocessed war. You gave it to others, they gave it to you, you gave it to yourself, it doesn’t matter. The buck stops here! You have to heal it.

Now, what about the healing power of love? It is the power that, in the end, redeems us all. You give it to yourself, you give it to others, they give it to you, it matters. As a veteran, with PTSD you may think you are far from love. Not true, you are closer to it that anyone. You have earned it.

The whole nine yards! Horror, fear, hatred, loathing, guilt, confusion, pain, loss, hopelessness, shattered identity, scrambled feelings, physical loss, pain and more pain, and more, much, much more. An endless stream of uncoiling, recreating, imaginary harm, based on our memory and the images of real harm; on-going, causing you and others around you, harm, long after the events. Yep, that pretty much sums PTSD up.

In our full realization of PTSD often we are so filled with so much of that horror, that we do not feel it is right even to be close to others, especially those we love, as if just being near us, can somehow harm them, somehow infect them, somehow make them create what we know can be so destructive to them. This toxicity is real. So is your power to get rid of it.

It makes you dangerous to yourself, dangerous to others and life often not worth living. In an attempt to self-medicate, to get away from it, it produces addiction in any form capable of separating us, for a few moments, from the close company of our PTSD.

Using drugs, as forms of numbing our sense of self, we can become separated from our higher self, our inner nature, the wounded conscience, love, our own soul that, by its awareness, brings us constant pain. When we push it away with drugs, we walk a dangerous path.

Stranger yet, somehow, in this total negativity, is our very real, understanding of the precious value of life, what its loss means to us and to others. We somehow are able to see the enormous beauty, grace and loving value of what has been lost, of what, in a perfect world, could and should be and what could and should never happen. It is PTSD and it belongs to us. It is also capable of being dissipated and healed in us, leaving us far stronger than we were before.

Well, if we want to get rid of PTSD, really want to, let’s do something about it. Let’s not just dump it, let’s transform it and replace it with its complete opposite. Let’s fix it. If we cannot completely fix our bodies from terrible damage we can at least fix the emotions, mind and restore the soul to us in a way that, believe it or not, in the end can make us grateful for the experiences – all of it!

You are in a perfect position to do that. You have nothing to lose, everything to gain and you have earned and paid for the lesson – good and bad. Now is the time to give yourself the reward.

Memorial Day

An open letter and offer to veterans everywhere

Memorial Day 2014 - Genevieve Gerard

You have survived the ravages of war and lived through unspeakable tension, strain, and horror to return to your loved ones and the life you left behind.

You may have noticed that things are different from the way you remember them to be.

You may have noticed that you are different from the way you remember yourself to be.

Too successfully return to civilian life, your life, there are some things that would be helpful for you to understand. By understanding these things and having the tools to transition from the stress of your war experience back into civilian life you can make a successful transition home.

To help you continue to make a successful transition I have created a series of guided meditations with techniques and tools that can help. As my gift to you on Memorial Day and Veterans Day weekends, I would like to give you the first three CDs in my new “I’m Free” series. If you use them to resolve and come through the normal residuals of your wartime experience, you can transition back into the experience of being home and leave the experience of war where it belongs, behind you.

Perhaps the first thing you need to understand about the transition to home is that you have been through an experience that required you to have and to hone skills that may have saved your life and the lives of your buddies many times, but applying those same skills to your family life and your daily life can create challenges for you and those you love.

In wartime, you had to be super vigilant. The slightest sound may have signaled a need to bring you to full awareness, full alert, on guard and ready. That was true as you slept and as you were awake. This state of readiness was appropriate to war. This same state of readiness can result in sleepless nights that wear away your patience. You had to sleep with that edge in war. You now need to relearn a pathway to sleep that turns down that energy to let you have peaceful sleep.

I'm Free To Relax CD Cover

Just as you trained your consciousness to be ever alert, now you need to train your consciousness to relax and be refreshed by a peaceful, secure sleep. That is why the first guided meditation in this gift bundle I’m Free To Relax is to help you release and leave behind the stress of war.

According to a 2011 Mayo Clinic article relaxation isn’t just about peace of mind or enjoying a hobby. Relaxation is a process that decreases the effects of stress on your mind and body. Relaxation techniques can help you cope with everyday stress and with stress related to various health problems.

Whether your stress is spiraling out of control or you’ve already got it tamed, you can benefit from learning relaxation techniques.


Learning relaxation techniques is easy and can reduce stress symptoms by:

  • Lowering blood pressure
  • Reducing muscle tension and chronic pain
  • Improving concentration
  • Reducing anger and frustration
  • Boosting confidence to handle problems

Certainly, the constant stress of the strain of war can leave a myriad of little pains that do not serve you. You can release these pains now. You can leave them behind. They will be healed. This meditation can help you do that a little at a time, releasing and letting go of what you no longer need of the pains of war as you transition back into peace and family life.

As you once trained your full being for war, you can now train your full being for everyday peace of mind. Moreover, although this may not seem necessary or important, letting go of the little tensions and anxiety that a car parking in a strange place or stopping next to you can engender is a part of making that transition. The physiological response to the unusual, that is different, is part of what helped you survive in war. Those same physiological edges to alertness can, if not tuned back, leave you always in a state of hyper-awareness and hyper vigilance that makes you edgy and impatient with those you love.

They have not been through what you have experienced. They do not understand and hopefully will never have to understand. You do not need to continue to carry that edge with you. This first guided meditation in the series I’m Free To Relax will help you take that adrenalin edge off and begin to react to the stimulus of normal civilian life without the warrior’s edge.

I'm Free To Sleep CD Cover


The second meditation in the series is I’m Free To Sleep. This will help you learn to sleep again in a way that is appropriate to peacetime and family life.


Be assured that if you ever need the skills of ready response you learned in war, they will be available to you. You do not have to have them turned on all the time.




I'm Feeling Free CD Cover

The third guided meditation in the series, I’m Feeling Free, is to help you release the emotions engendered by being in a situation where you had to see unspeakable things and maybe do unspeakable things.

These things can be a part of war. They may have been necessary and appropriate to the situation you were in. They were created in the past and can stay in the past. They have no place in the now.

You need to let yourself move that energy out of your body, out of your being, out of your consciousness. You need to now put it behind you, transform it, transmute it and release it.

We know from the science of physics we cannot destroy energy but we can change its form. This meditation is about transforming the emotions we are carrying from our past and letting them change into that which is positive and of service to others. It may not make sense that just focusing our mind and our attention on our emotions can change their form, but it works. It has been proven that energy follows thought. It is powerful and helps you release what was past to let you return to now so that you can enjoy and appreciate your life without carrying the war with you.

I have worked with Genevieve Gerard for over thirty years in transformation, healing, meditation groups and on many projects. She is eminently qualified having worked for many years with trauma victims. Genevieve created these products out of love to help those who suffer trauma, including me. Her guidance works.
      -James McTague Vietnam 66-68

These well worded guided meditations may seem to be simple solutions to complex problems, but by using them regularly with an open heart and an open mind you will find that your energy gradually balances and the dynamic guardedness you have carried, that saved you in wartime but can now slay you in peacetime, is able to readjust to your current circumstances and begin to re-bridge the distance that seemed to exist between you and those you left behind.

These proven meditations only take 15 to 20 minutes each. They are guided so that you only need to follow along in your mind. Most people who have used the Sleep meditation say that they are asleep before the meditation is over (and that is perfectly ok.) What is great is there are no pharmaceutical side effects to these meditations. You can use them as often as you want and as often as you need them. Using them will help you shift your awareness to who you are beyond the experiences you have been through. They will help you regain and restore yourself, to your self.


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A note from the creator of these meditations:

I wrote these meditations after having studied meditation for over 45 years. For over 35 years as a counselor I have used guided meditation both in my own life and in helping others who have been through severe injury and pain. I have brought these meditation techniques to you to help with your transition back into your life. You have given enough, you have sacrificed enough. It is time to leave the war behind you and come to the world you sacrificed to serve for, able to fully participate in your life and receive all the love and joy that life can now offer to you. This series was created especially for you, for that purpose.

I recommend using I’m Feeling Free at least once a day or more times when emotional responses are troublesome. I’m Free to Relax can be used whenever the world is too much and you find yourself stressed out. I’m Free To Sleep is best used upon retiring for the night.

Please enjoy these as my gift to you on Memorial Day.

In Gratitude,

Genevieve Gerard


P.S. These techniques can be done quickly and silently at any time without anyone knowing and repetition enhances the effectiveness. Anyone can master these techniques; it’s as simple as breathing and only takes minutes to put into practice.

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